“I had to accept that I was unwanted”

Actor and comedian Michael Richards is on the road to promote his new memoir, “Entrances And Exits,” out June 4.

And his candid memories of his childhood include the admission that he was lied to about his father’s identity during his formative years.

The previous His field The star’s mother initially told him that his father had died in World War II. When he then pressed her because the numbers were incorrect, she changed the story and said his father had died in a car accident.

As he increased his efforts and tracked down a man he thought might be his father, she finally came clean and confessed that he was the product of a sexual assault against her.

Elsewhere in his forthcoming memoir, the actor also reveals his secret battle with prostate cancer and reflects on his 2006 racist tirade.

After his mother, Phyllis Nardozzi, learned the full story, she informed him that she wanted to have an abortion, but that it was illegal in 1949 when she was pregnant. Therefore, she decided to give him up for adoption, but ultimately changed her mind and raised him as a single mother.

When Richards first heard this, he was devastated and felt unwanted.

It also explained why he had felt unlovable throughout his life and why he was full of anger inside.

“I had to accept that I was unwanted and that my mother wanted to get rid of me,” said the Culver City, California native.

“That’s definitely something I’ve had to explore over the years to figure out how my anger stems from a feeling of inferiority,” Richards explained. “I have a hot temper, and it stems from not being unwanted, not being accepted, not being understood, not being good enough to be liked or even loved.”

It turned out that his last name, Richards, was invented as part of the original story his mother made up to hide the traumatic details about his father.

The former “Fridays” star had turned down many opportunities in the entertainment industry over the years because he felt unworthy and insecure.

“I turned down the offer of a star on the Hollywood Walk of Fame. I felt I didn’t deserve it,” he admitted, adding, “I turned down the opportunity to host Saturday Night Live twice because I didn’t feel good enough.”

These thoughts and feelings of not being good enough wreaked havoc on his soul even during the years he spent starring in “Seinfeld.”

“Every week on Seinfeld, I felt like I was never really satisfied with my performance and thought I could always do better.”

“And the higher the stakes, the greater the pressure to always be good,” he said.

“And accepting myself, even when my audience loved me and I was brimming with awards, recognition and offers – that sometimes felt almost impossible, far too overwhelming.”

Richards continued, “I thought, ‘I don’t like myself as much as they like me. They wouldn’t like me if they knew the real me, the person behind the character they’re laughing at.'”

The man behind the iconic role of Cosmo Kramer in “Seinfeld” also revealed his health problems in 2018 when he was diagnosed with stage 1 prostate cancer.

“I thought, ‘Okay, now it’s my time. I’m ready to go.'” People quoted Richards. “But then just a few seconds later my son came to mind and I heard myself saying, ‘I have a 9-year-old and I want to be there for him.'”

After a biopsy, Richards said his doctor recommended immediate surgery to remove the entire prostate.

“It had to be contained quickly,” the California native explained. “I had to undergo a full surgery. If I hadn’t done that, I probably would have died in about eight months.”

Richards now leads a quiet life and enjoys being the husband of 46-year-old actress Beth Skipp and the father of their son Antonio.

Richards’ new memoir, “Entrances and Exits,” won’t hit bookstores until June 4, but can be preordered now wherever books are sold.